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Calling a Mulligan

Have you ever just had one of those days, or moments when you wish you could just do it all over again?  You realize the stupid mistake you made and wish you could erase it away.  Well, I recently had that happen to me in a very powerful way.


When we really, really want something so desperately that we could just reach down inside and pull it out, won’t we do just about anything to get it?  We hope and dream and pray and beg.  We just know that what we are asking for and want is 100% the right answer.  We cry out to God and cry out to God just hoping to beseech Him enough that He will answer us.


Recently I had just that happen to me on a pretty large scale.  So, I had been asking God to help me with a loan I was trying to get for further expansion over one of my businesses.  And I told, yes that’s right…I told God that I knew what I wanted and asked Him to give it to me.


Anyways, I was given an opportunity by the SBA to hold the mortgage on my building…but there was just one problem.  The SBA won’t loan to any Businesses principally engaged in teaching, instructing, counseling or indoctrinating religion or religious beliefs, whether in a religious or secular setting”.   Well, uggh, what do I do now.  Oh I knew what to do alright.


You see, I am sooo very smart and superior in my thinking.  So much so that I always have the correct answer…..bahhahahahaha.  Yeah, whatever.  But this was my thinking at the moment.  I knew what to do, so I got to work.


The loan officer was coming by for a visit to my business and I had to take action.  So, I quickly called the girls and told them to (no judgement now) cover up and/or take down the religious items in the main areas of the building.  I know, I know, but it was just for an hour, right.  Yep, me oh perfect Christian wife, mom, daughter, and business owner put my plan into action.


My plan was to get this guy in and out of the building without seeing what I said I stood for in every way.  I justified my rationale that I was not denying God, just simply not wearing Him visibly upon my sleeve, or my business so to speak.  Worse yet, I even had all my employees follow suit.  AHHHHH, in retrospect!  It is absolutely amazing how we can talk ourselves into thinking things are okay to do, when we know deep in our hearts that it is so wrong.


To make a long story short, the guy never ended up coming.  And now I felt so bad about my decision.  I had been up all night long regretting and volleying back in forth in my head.  But I felt like I had no other choice. How else would I get this accomplished? I was putting my plan into action and relying on myself to get what I wanted when I wanted it!  Huh, God said….think again.


So, lets fast forward another week.  Ifinally get a text message from the loan officer stating he would like to come by the following day to meet with me.  Okay, I thought, here we go again.  But this time I felt something different.  I knew that I knew that what I had done was wrong.  And now I was being given a second chance to make the right decision.


Oh my gosh, I was a hot wreck.  So I stopped by my parent’s house to drown my misery.  I was explaining to them the circumstances when my dad said, “Well maybe God will give you a ‘Mulligan’.”  I laughed and told him that I had already been given my Mulligan, many times.  Oh thank God that he does give us ‘Mulligans’ or opportunities for a redo.


So again I was up all night and morning thinking what I could say to this loan officer to convince him that I am not a “religious” business.  I was prepared to cover the gamut from religion to relationship.  I never really consider myself to be “religious”.  This is way too hard for me.  But I do know that I have an amazing relationship with my Father.  And the Bible is not some “religious theology”, but rather a book filled with wisdom and knowledge.  And to deny the Bible as a valid source of history, one should also deny all other historical books.  I focus on love and how to love because then, and only then can we really know the true nature of Christ.


Okay, back on track, so God was giving me my Mulligan.  And trust me when I say my heart was pitter, pattering non-stop.  But then it struck me!  Why on earth was I so worried about a man when I have the Creator of All things on my side.  He is for me and not against me.  And the only place worry was getting me was nowhere.  So, I cried out to God and left it all in His hands.  And after all my heartache and worry, I at last felt some peace by not trying on my own to make things happen.   I opened up the Word for comfort and found, 2 Chronicles 32:7 “be strong and courageous!  Don’t be afraid (of a mere person), for there is a power far greater on our side!  …..he is just a man.  We have the Lord our God to help us and to fight our battles for us.”


And fight my battles is exactly what and who God is!  Not only did God answer my prayers, but He actually gave me better solutions that I didn’t even know existed.  And the loan officer, this man I feared so greatly, told me that he was nervous to come talk to me.  Well, isn’t life funny?  All that anxiety for nothing more than a headache and guilty feelings.  God had it all along and He deserved all the praise.  For my pride in trying to solve the problem on my own, only led me to a pit of despair. But when I put my trust in God, He took care of everything.


So, I want to encourage you today to know that EVERYONE, even those you couldn’t imagine, make mistakes.  Maybe you have an addiction to drugs, or alcohol, or pornography, or cursing or smoking.  Perhaps your issue is your wrong way of thinking or not fully trusting God.  Well, I am here to tell you today that we have a Great and Mighty God on our side.  He hears you when you call to Him and He will fight your battles for you.


Don’t give up and give in.  Instead seek God and His wisdom.  Quit relying on yourself and your own abilities.  Ask God for a Mulligan and make the right choice.  Remember what Isaiah 42:10 tells us, Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.”


Blessings:  Heather Joyner